I stumbled both in darkness and in the deception of artificial light during times of wavering faith in my life. Early on, I was caught up in the ways of the secular world through music and materialism. And my first career, which mixed business and alcohol, left me intoxicated. Church gave me a headache - it seemed like the pastor was yelling directly at me. So I didn't go very often. Then one day, I slipped into the comfort of a darkened cathedral a little further down the street. It had a sign out front saying they had open minds. Sermons were short, and I could leave feeling peaceful because they didn't talk about sin.
It wasn't until I woke up to the fact that we are living in the end times, that I opened my own Bible and began reading it again. I was shocked. I had actually forgotten that God was pure, righteous, and holy. The depth and darkness of my sin was astounding.
And I have been overwhelmed with His light which He continues to pour into my life as I discover layer upon layer of previously unrecognized sin. As we draw closer to true light, we become that light.
"I am come a light into the world,
that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness."
John 12:46 KJV